Sunday, December 31, 2006
Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing but I go ahead anyway.
I do make mistakes. I do make decisions that I may regret later. I do contradict myself to the point there is no edge left to stand. I do do things that I hate. If you expect me to fit the mould you have in your mind of who I am, don't blame me if I disappoint because I need room to make mistakes. This is not an excuse.
I just need some kind of reassurance that it's okay to make mistakes. That I can still be accepted and loved even when my mistakes are so glaringly obvious. That the God I serve is not judged on my own wilful conduct (but why not on His?). That there is no way anyone can always be a good representation of Christ because he is perfection.
This is not an excuse- that I'm imperfect. This is just the plea of a christian begging the rest of the world to stop watching the mistakes of christians. To stop watching the mistakes of christians when our God did not throw a thunderbolt and commanded us to do what terrible hypocritical things it is that christians sometimes do.
Yes, our God is good. We? We may not be.
Yes, our God is righteous. We? We may not be.
Yes, our God has the right to judge. We? We do not have.
Yes, our God is sinless. We? We're sinners always.
Yes, our God is wise. We? We beg for wisdom, christian or not.
Yes, our God knows everything. We? We can only speculate, assume?
What our God is we can only TRY to emulate. But is it ever possible for humanity to reach God's standards? I really doubt a lifetime is ever enough.
Don't judge God by the things that christians sometimes do.
Rather, let God judge us.
Don't be turned off by the evangelism of christians as them boasting how "wonderful" their life is, and you watch to see that they can't handle a single thing.
See evangelism as this- that at the heart of it was a man who died for an altruistic motive of saving the world (whether or not you believe he succeeded).
Why are we forgetting the price that he paid?
It was not for anyone to be elevated or put down in his death- but for the most broken, the lost, the depressed, to come into reconcilliation with someone who loves them more than life.
I don't care that my life and that of other christians is not exemplary. Honestly? I doubt it'll ever be. It won't be. How many Mother Theresas can there be? So don't watch us. Watch past the foolish pride of christians in their own salvation to the thing that gave them that chance in the first place.
I don't know why some christians can brand themselves up and be all so happy with their own salvation. I mean, seriously? Our Saviour was a half-dead man carrying his cross, pounded by the crowd into crucification. Our salvation? Our salvation? I mean, hello, you can only qualify for salvation if you are a sinner. Anyone isn't? Where is the divide? Jesus didn't die for "such a divide", he died "such a cause" as 'reconciliation'.
Because the most lousy person doesn't change the fact that He dragged a wooden cross- half-beaten to a place where he could be hammered in by nails through the marrow of his bones- with the belief that it'll save the world.
Naive? Yeah, maybe. By the way, we call him the Saviour.
In 2007, I just want to shut my ears to the accusations of other people, and my eyes to what christians are doing. Not exemplary? I look at the President of the christian nation of America, and I seriously doubt how exemplary any one christian can be. Not perfect!
In 2007 I just want everyone and anyone to see the price He paid.
God is still good, all the time.
The word 'Us' makes a very different equation.
debbie at 2:00 PM