Sunday, February 26, 2006
This is the last day you're going to be alive.You don't know why you know it, you don't think you know it, you know it. You're lying on a hospital bed and your family crowds around you. The white ceiling? You've stared at it for the past 3 months. You know they say, before you die, your life flashes before you. What rubbish, you think, nothing is flashing. What were you expecting, some slow replay of the greatest moments in life? No, its just a panic that is slowly rising your heartbeat. Panic. Panic. Panic. Why?
Two questions come into your mind:
WHAT HAVE I BEEN LIVING FOR?
WAS IT WORTH IT?
You have 2 seconds.
Game Over.
debbie at 7:18 AM
Thursday, February 23, 2006
I TELL YOU,do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendour was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, "What shall we eat?" or "What shall we drink?" or "What shall we wear?" For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:19-34
debbie at 8:02 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
one night will summarise how the rest of your life has been.i come home and there's cups and plates in the sink no one has (and no one will) touch for the next 24 hours until by some miracle some creature (there are no humans living here, humans are hygienic right?) decides to wash the dishes. my dad's headed out of the house despite it being 9.29pm to watch a midnight movie all my himself. i hate it!! i hate it can you stop being so lonely and going out by yourself??! i really want to accompany you but i am SO tired can you just come home and not make me feel so guilty. my mom is going on and on about the government giving out money, my dog is barking at me because she demands my leg, my elder sister's sleeping upstairs cos she's been watching korean drama series 24/7 and my twin sister, sometimes i suspect i get her better on msn then going next to her to say a sentence. there is no one online that i can talk to, and i haven't slept although i am damn tired cos my friend hasnt handed up some feature writing evaluation thingy as she has no laptop for like the past one month she just hasnt fixed it and so i have to wait for her call to type it out for her.
sometimes life is really disgustingly terrible
i dyed my hair red! :) yeah, one productive thing.
From "He chose the nails" by Max Lucado:
"Jesus never knew the fruits of sin... until he became sin for us.
And when he did, all the emotions of sin tumbled in on him like shadows in a forest. He felt anxious, guilty, and alone. Can't you hear the emotion in his prayer? "My God, my God, why have you rejected me?" (Matt 27:46). These are not the words of a saint. This is the cry of a sinner.
debbie at 5:29 AM
Friday, February 17, 2006
guess what i got for my science tech and the world test.27/30.
i'm not kidding you.
WAHAHAHAHA. woah right! i am a smart girl! :P
i'm one of the top few in the class okay, all those chemical engineering students can just bang their heads against the wall now. WAHAHAHA. i heard somebody mutter.. how can Debbie get 27?! yes i did, WAAHAHA, so!
yay i'm VERY HAPPY all my work is over. left exams now. must do very well!! advertising presentation was very good.. heheheeeeeeee. we rehearsed the entire night! like maybe 7 times. i realised that the feeling of not sleeping the whole day is like you are a dead corpse being dragged along by a rope.. except that you're also the person holding the rope. i really felt like dying, just wanted to go home and sleep. and now its 7.22 am! haha i love to sleep. mm presentation was ok. i thought my poster was very nice.. you know that this whole sem i've been doing every single photoshop work in my project, except feature writing.
debbie at 3:19 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
wah today my parents are very kua zhang.you know that some gunman shot someone at serangoon where i live nearby.. so my dad smsed the whole family and my mom immediately called all of us and demanded that we all go to town as its very safe. so we all were forced to go to town and spend the rest of today even though i was quite tired after tv pro.. hahaha.. they think that the gunman so easy to find and attack us huh.. aiyo. what if we were living in the US where everyone has a gun? my parents would have heart attack everyday.
debbie at 9:12 AM
Sunday, February 12, 2006
will you talk to me about yourselfi just want to fill up the air
i won't listen i just want to feel
like i'm having a conversation
because maybe that'll translate
into some kind of stupid thing
like i think that's what they call
company?
i'll stare at you and pretend to
listen, and the colours around me
are bleeding, they're bleeding
and the clouds are swirling
its all white and a mash of colours
i can't hear you but i think you know
that it doesn't matter
i just need you to be here
we can fake the rest of this conversation
later
when words will start to actually matter
i hope they never do
i just need you to hold my hand
don't you know if you take my hand
i will know you'll on my side
then it won't matter what you say
even as this world fades away
and the colours recede, corrode, erode
and it will, but you're holding my hand
and i forget what i'm saying too
does it matter?
debbie at 11:26 AM
SO WHAT IF YOU'RE ON TV?very big deal, apparantly. tv has this amazing ability to make you seem so extremely personal to ONE person such that ONE person can fall in love with you on ONE tv, and that makes you a star overnight cos everybody felt they had a PERSONAL experience with you. CRAP. we know that, but then why do we still only get interested in people after they appear on tv?
i am thinking about tv and people noticing people only after they get on tv cos of singapore idol. really, as much as taufik/sly/olinda fans claim their love for them, had they walked past them one afternoon on orchard road in pre-idol days, they might not have even turned their heads to scream and badger their beloved idol. but then well, they went on tv..........
debbie at 11:00 AM
Thursday, February 09, 2006
i'm in tears i'm really in tears. there's so much work and i dont even know where to begin. asdkfkfflsjddfsjlkdsljkdsjklfdsljkfslkjsdfjkldsljksdjkldsjlkf HELP. im so tired......................................................................................................................................................................
debbie at 10:32 AM
Sunday, February 05, 2006
:(((((((((((((((((I SERIOUSLY REGRET that i'm in Science Technology & the World.
SHUCKS, cant i have a easier IS?
I'm not cultivated to love science, you know.
what genetic engineering, tissue engineering and nanotechnology. argh. i would have chosen a science course if im so interested. WHY WHY WHY did i turn up late for the picking and end up with this???
now i actually have to study it..................................................................
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debbie at 6:35 PM