Sunday, June 11, 2006

I always hear people saying that light and darkness, good and evil must co-exist, and one cannot do without the other. So many teach that if there's goodness there's bound to be evil and we can only accept this evil- we can never get out of it, because darkness and light must co-exist. That's not true. Imagine if a room is so bright, so bright, there will be a time that it'll be bright enough there's not one shadow left. Light can engulf all darkness and shadows by itself.

Where did the devil Lucifer come from? From God? Why did God create the devil? Maybe God needs the devil because there must be a balance between good and evil so that we'll know what's good. Because if there's no evil, we don't know what's good.

Then again God doesn't need evil to demonstrate he is good. He is good, full-stop. It's not true that without evil we don't know what's good, without what's bad we don't know what's good. Are we that stupid? Don't we have a soul, a conscience, morals and things just innate, just instinctual in us telling us what's good? The same way we all agree murder is wrong, we just know in the snap of a finger, instinctively, what's GOOD. We don't need cruelty, torture, rape, oppression before we know it's good to have love, to have peace, to want these things even. Human nature has even in most primitive stages protected their communities, outcasted murderers, and all our societal values of what's right and wrong has evolved from those days. A modern group of men in business suits didn't sit around a table and decided what's good for us. We know what's good. What's only true about evil is that it exemplifies the light- the darker the shadow we know the brighter the light.

I don't believe in a balance of good and evil- cos if there's a balance, how can you tell who's really GOOD GOOD and who's really BAD BAD to go into heaven? If you have your own scale, you have this kind of 'goodness' whereby badness can also co-exist in that person, isn't it so subjective- is that fair? how can you judge goodness if evil can also co-exist? Like if a murderer starts to do good deeds for the rest of his life- which part of the black and white are you going to put him in- the grey area? he may have done much good, but are you sure that's enough to have excused his evil? i mean, who are you to judge and how are you to decide? just make sure one keeps doing good deeds until you feel that you've over-rode your bad deeds? however then, will you know if its enough, and are you fit to judge, when you don't even know the weight of your own sins? only God can decide? and if you put him in this grey area- how can there be a heaven filled with people from grey areas? it'll give us room to excuse our own short-comings and say, its okay to have done that, i can redeem myself and then i can still go to heaven. but can we ever redeem ourselves?

I feel that religions that condone this co-existence in the name of 'harmony' actually gives humanity a nice way out of committing evil. oh, just you know, do more good deeds, and redeem yourself. But why would I want to worship in a religion that tells me that I can redeem myself? You mean I can be on par with my God and the decision to go to heaven lies in whether in my own life I want to do enough good things to be in heaven? Why if my God is all-powerful can I be on par with him by my own imperfections? I'd much rather prefer a God SO GOOD that a lifetime of trying to do good things to redeem myself CANNOT EVEN qualify me for heaven. That's the heaven I want to go to, not a heaven filled with people who have redeemed themselves.

I don't want a God that's going to allow me to redeem myself especially when we're all sinners simply because- that's the extent of the goodness of God? If we have only sinned ONCE in our lifetime, we HAVE sinned, and our imperfection can never measure up at all to Him, imperfect people cannot redeem their own imperfections even if they spend their whole lives in a race of trying to attain 'perfection' or whatever others call this chase- nirvana? If we have no right or capability to judge our sins and how much goodness we can ever do to replace our sins- or if its even possible, then you'd agree that the only way we can replace our sins is by a complete purging of our lives- or letting us die and being borned again. And I only know one God that does it without me spending hundreds of lifetimes going through it physically to 'learn' some lessons- learn what? How many lifetimes do you need to know men's hearts are evil and the world is evil, and a hundred years before or after is exactly the same as today? You will never be perfect no matter how many lifetimes you live, because this is our humanity's flaw- we have a tendency to sin. You think in a hundred million lifetimes you can purge yourself after finally living half a millenium and undoing all the wrong things you've done and and you can be pure? You will commit a sin whether in this lifetime or in the 134th lifetime, and every life will have the temptation to sin.

debbie at 7:45 AM