I lie awake
Yes wake awake
The sleeplessness that drowns me
Like a song that unwinds itself backwards
That I can drown on concrete pavements
With a feast can still starve
Is this sleeplessness
Like a fast run through the wilderness
Panting and gasping without having moved
Without having been anywhere
At any time or any place
Give me all your grace
This is the eyes wide open
Crying that they're blind
This is the helplessness
Trying to help it self
This is the brokenness
Trying to mend its cracks
This is my frailty and failures
This is my nakedness that I'm ashamed of
This is the world that I cannot condone yet am in
I struggle to sleep with and wake to
Yes I lie awake
Try to wake a wake
Realise
Everything about my life is a lie
You're all that I depend on
Save me from my unworthiness
I cling onto you
Like a drowning man clutching at straws
Because there's nothing left
I can cling onto
When the world's another drowning lover
This time
I just want to f l o a t
debbie at 4:28 PM