Saturday, April 22, 2006

hi, an update :)

these are the things i have done in my company:
1) make skipping ropes out of rubber bands until 7
2) tick attendance for a conference
3) make animation for powerpoint slides
4) make toys out of recycled materials
5) buy lunch for 8 people with a broken lift
6) left alone to man a booth
7) put word documents together
8) choreograph dance steps

can somebody please tell me the relevance of my work and how this """working experience"""" can possibly, if even a little at all, help me in my future endeavours. right, how about teaching me that office life is a boring routine of staring at the computer from 9 to 6 feeling all your life wasting before your eyes doing non-related stuff?

i'm out of my company!! :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

these few weeks has been traumatic, depressing and lonely. i have learnt how to be alone. learn how to spend time alone with myself. i mean 10 hours in the office, no one goes for lunch everyone buys back. its gotten so bad i realised these last few weeks i will talk to myself. think i've turn a little weird even. sigh.

i'm so glad its over.. i was trying so hard to make things work, just go through it, just go through it, just go through it. last thursday i made a mistake at work. so of course, i stayed back to amend it. and then my mom kept calling me cuz i was supposed to meet her. it was super stressful. i kept apologising to the person my supervisor put me with, "i'm soooooooooooo sorry i promise i'll help you do this tomorrow.. (looks at watch, 9) i've really got to go..." person huffs, "the boss wants to see you" boss gives me this disgusted look like i'm the worst person on earth, "Debbie you're SO bo chap. I want you to FINISH everything, you hear me???? From now on you FORWARD EVERY mail you send out to me, EVERY thing you do you report to me." WHAT THING??? I'm doing CRAP WORK what thing you want me to report to you??????????????? one mistake and you cannot even let it go? i already apologised, i already said i will stay back the next day until its corrected. and then until i cried at the computer, then they said in this repulsed tone, "you go home"

later they insisted to my mom they wanted to send somebody to walk me home. why do i find that so hard to believe. oh, probably because i was standing at the office downstairs for 15 minutes waiting for my parents to pick me up?

grrrrrrrr.. anger is seeping through me. it doesn't pay to tolerate people's insults and crap work does it?

anyway im so glad its over. i'll never go back there again.

debbie at 9:30 PM