Sunday, February 19, 2006
one night will summarise how the rest of your life has been.
i come home and there's cups and plates in the sink no one has (and no one will) touch for the next 24 hours until by some miracle some creature (there are no humans living here, humans are hygienic right?) decides to wash the dishes. my dad's headed out of the house despite it being 9.29pm to watch a midnight movie all my himself. i hate it!! i hate it can you stop being so lonely and going out by yourself??! i really want to accompany you but i am SO tired can you just come home and not make me feel so guilty. my mom is going on and on about the government giving out money, my dog is barking at me because she demands my leg, my elder sister's sleeping upstairs cos she's been watching korean drama series 24/7 and my twin sister, sometimes i suspect i get her better on msn then going next to her to say a sentence. there is no one online that i can talk to, and i haven't slept although i am damn tired cos my friend hasnt handed up some feature writing evaluation thingy as she has no laptop for like the past one month she just hasnt fixed it and so i have to wait for her call to type it out for her.
sometimes life is really disgustingly terrible
i dyed my hair red! :) yeah, one productive thing.
From "He chose the nails" by Max Lucado:
"Jesus never knew the fruits of sin... until he became sin for us.
And when he did, all the emotions of sin tumbled in on him like shadows in a forest. He felt anxious, guilty, and alone. Can't you hear the emotion in his prayer? "My God, my God, why have you rejected me?" (Matt 27:46). These are not the words of a saint. This is the cry of a sinner.debbie at 5:29 AM